I was surrounded by so many faces

Yet I felt so alone

Everywhere I looked,

Smiles spread from one cheek to another

I imitated so I wouldn’t seem like an outsider

 

 

I woke up every morning with no sunshine

Every moment of my life feeling like twilight

No Dusk, No Dawn

Just me and the devil inside who felt like a friend

 

 

They asked me what it felt like

And I replied with “nothing”

which was as honest as I could be

I envied people who found purpose and happiness

When I barely managed to find a single reason

 

Despite everything I’ve felt

Or lacked to feel

I’d never wish this even upon my greatest enemy

Because I know, this hurts more than a thousand wounds ever could